Maple Pecan.

2010-06-23T02:15:00.003+08:00

I just realised how juvenile my actions can be nowadays. I don't fathom why is this happening to me or i'm just simply trying to achieve something... negative, I suppose.

To everyone who hung out with me for the past few weeks, I apologise for the childish-ness and I promise i'll revert back to normal asap.

Oh, I miss my old self. That 'Jojo' element seems to be absent for quite time already.

Stressful period.

2010-03-16T17:03:00.003+08:00

Chui. I can no longer withstand the lackadaisical attitude that i'm having right now. Bad. Very very bad.

Internship: This is already the third damn week of my attachment and what can I say? It's not draining and fun (miraculously) when it comes to events. Just like the two most current events; Cleo 50 Most Eligible Bachelors and the upcoming Food & Beverage fair @ the Suntec City convention hall. Well, the Cleo event was fun and the best thing is you get to experience (first-hand) and observe how everything works. That is inclusive of the Cleo side, event crew & of course, the Dusty crew. For the F&B fare, well, i'll be there this thurs and fri so yeap, may god bless me. I heard it's gonna be damn tiring, smelly, hot, crowded.........

Uber (oooh-bur): Yes, for some bizarre reason, I find that name rather interesting & very 'russian-ist' and that is actually our company new club/lounge/bar/restaurant locating @ Robertson Walk. Honestly speaking, I don't think business would be as good as expected as it targets mainly at the higher-end crowd. Seriously, we already have a pub, a restaurant and 5 retail outlets. And right now, the new lounge is said to be opened in mid April, how on earth are they gonna handle it? Our Marketing dept. is indeed the BGL club- Bao Ga Liao.

Frolick: Oh wells, I had just gotten my very first pay from Fro & its just a pathetic 50 bucks. -.- But well, I truly love the flexibility of the job & how interesting hilarious some FroGirls can get. Afterall, i'm not exactly working for the $$$.

Dusty&HR: As usual, I no longer work there since i'm interning @ the office. But anyway, even before my internship, it would be surprising to see me behind the counters frequently. Too busy lah.

Tuition: I swear Valencia is pissing me off cos she is ridiculously weak in her Mother Tongue. So what happens when she gets lousy grades in her exams? ME. Everyone would turn to the tutor and starts to doubt his/her abilities.

Volunteering: :( Double sadness. I've far too many commitments that i'm afraid i'll have to give up this particular one, for the time being.

Raphael: Another commitment which I would never give up. :) So far so good.

Fyp: Ok, I do not wish to talk about it right now.

Agnes b: I know it's random but my Agnes b ring broke. KNNBCCB.

I seriously ought to manage my time well & when I think about it, my schedule isn't that packed cos occasionally, I can still afford to LUM NUA at home and watch the cheena version of Incredible Tales on Channel 8. And oh, my credit card is another ^@%^&@*^*#^&$^#*^$&&*@&**&@$@!%^^?&!@ thing that I totally regret getting one. Maybe I should ask my mom to change the credit limit to only 5,000 bucks/month.

Anyway, I find it quite sickening to hear rumours about myself which are totally NOT TRUE. Whats worse, it comes from someone I barely know. KNN. Hello?! Who says I slog & save to buy my stuff?

2009-10-09T13:50:00.002+08:00

Crap. Totally crap.

It's sickening to be in a class where there're so many 'existing' I would say, cliques. First of all, they might discuss about you and the rest & it isn't an easy task to blend in perfectly. It's like fuck, people have known each other for already 3 (or more) damn months and practically see each other every single day. How the hell do we 'bond'?

Thankfully, Martin, me & Yang can form a mini clique and we belong to the 'extras' in that class. You know, leftovers kinda thang but well, I very much adore them (and aimee perhaps) more than anyone else in class. Afterall, we knew each other longer THAN anyone else there.

Just how much I miss Nutella, Gene in the bottle, QH and the rest of e25m. You know, they are seriously nice (when I say nice, i mean it) and harmless people who are definitely not those ultimate bitches you see in other classes.

2009-08-29T17:40:00.004+08:00

Was at town yesterday and that was the first time in three weeks for heaven's sake. Of cos, it kinda feels good to go window-shopping once again after the exams but sadly, as the name suggests, 'window-shop', it means we could only 'see' it & definitely not own it.

Then I thought to myself, 'how about me buying something for myself on my birthday?'. I really liked the idea initially cos well, it's a great time to pamper myself with something I really really fancy, perhaps for a long long time already (or another excuse to buy things). And even, go shopping alone and buy those things that I could only 'see', & treat it as the perfect birthday gift for myself (*imagining myself roaming ard the shopping mall and just keep buying & buying with that damn credit card..) Especially without the Raphael's constant naggings about buying toooooooooo much unnecessary stuff back home. Hmm.. Maybe today. But then again, the whole thing just sounds quite pathetic.

August is a month i've been looking forward to all these while cos there're two major (I feel) events that are considered important to me: 1) My 1st year anniversary with Raphael 2) My birthday. Hoho.. But sometimes, I do hope that my birthday and anniversary day aren't just a mere two days apart.. Whatever it is, cos ultimately, its the person who's with me matters the most.

2009-08-26T01:31:00.004+08:00

Excruciating pain.

Ouch.

I'm praying for everyone around me to be happy every single day and definitely,

for myself as well.
& I wanna make lots of birthday wishes this Sunday.

Hopefully it'll all come true.. He he.

2009-08-22T03:10:00.008+08:00

I'm a total failure, as a person, as a girlfriend. Yes, totally.

I am again, a total failure, as a daughter, as a friend.

I used to think I handle things pretty well & know my limits.

& similarly, I used to take things for granted and neglect the wonderful things that my loved ones used to do to me.

Some still love me selflessly. Some still shower me with lots and lots of love. But for some.. *

I fail totally as a person and I cant help but to emphasize that.

I never knew my limits. Never.

Yes, I only do when i'm on the verge of..

Losing everything.

I couldn't bring happiness to anyone.

Not even you.

All I know is to be a nuisance and make things worse.

Unfortunately, the outcome is dire I would say.

Despite all those final warnings, chances, bad indications of things, the changes....

I would've realised it. I thought I did.

I thought I was already changing.

yes.. That was what I thought.

I have already missed the previous train ride to happiness

But I believe that i've yet to miss the LAST train.

This time round, i'll have to personally look for it and never let IT slip away from my hands ever again..

You may not be feeling anything now.

But I know for sure that one day,

you would need me, like how much I want you by my side.

I have to be strong.. I need to.

Go, Jojo!

2009-08-19T04:28:00.002+08:00

我好难过。。好难过。。

希望这一切能够赶快结束。

而我，什么都不想去理会了。

再加上，打从一开始就是个错误。

再见了。

2009-07-30T13:02:00.001+08:00

Is everything predestined? I hope so.

2009-07-22T14:39:00.014+08:00

Weiling's birthday!

After party..

Larger pics..(with Martin C Pillay acting like a monkey)

I love y'all.

2009-07-16T15:43:00.005+08:00

Just a couple of things to highlight.

Skipped Cross-culture comm. lesson today and I totally regret it. Sigh..
PP report- only a mere 8% done.
Three upcoming Understanding tests- not a single bit of revision done.
Raphael is my role model when it comes to studies.
Working- Compulsory to commit at least three times per week, else, we'll have to make it up by the following week(s). Idk what the hell's wrong with my manager.
I miss my mom.
I have found a new goal in life.
Three upcoming birthdays- totally not looking forward to the one on Monday cos my boyfriend's ex is gonna be there. Extremely spoiler/sickening, huh?
Terrible day cos I had a major argument with Raphael. Totally crap. And apparently, he just cannot stand my temperaments.
Thankfully, my prayers have been answered and my hair is becoming 'brown-er' each day! Hola!

Raphael and I would be getting Jinxian a birthday and I guess for R, a whole lot of beer as well. Since it's on Monday, I thought it would be good if I start looking for some on-line cake shops now or perhaps, customise it. And holy mama! I seriously can't wait to share some pictures of those cakes they make, but oh, they can be quite explicit though.

Anyway, ChowWeiling's birthday is on this coming sat and yeap, High School's the theme. Sounds damn cute right! It's gonna be fun yo. & hopefully, I can take more pictures cos my digi cam is accumulating dust.

The dopest/cutest/coolest/funniest birthday cakes ever.. Would you feel horny when you eat it? Hmm, I guess not.

If interested, refer to Jojo for the website.

2009-07-13T22:03:00.005+08:00

School sucks, school sucks, school sucks! Alright, I don't dread school that much already but those Understanding tests(UTs) are getting on my nerves. Raphael is insanely hardworking and I swear he really does study for his UTs like how we used to mug during our Olevels. How terrifying, huh?

Oh wells, perhaps you might be thinking wat-the-hell's wrong with me and go 'hey, you mean you don't study for your UTs??'. It's like yes, I do but I don't go to the extent whereby I take down notes in class, go through each & every worksheet questions, presentation slides, re-attempt quiz questions and suck it, my course doesn't even believe in the effectiveness of those damn quizzes. But who knows, you might see me doing this in Year 3. Ah heckkkkkk.

There is this one thing that I seriously can't wait to get it off my chest. Okay, I went to 'colour'(or dye for the matter) my hair yesterday at Raphael's favourite hair salon ard Holland. Then I was like fine, since i've been yearning to have a 'brown head', so might as well dye it there cos I trust their professionalism this much. However, it turned out to be a tone darker than my initial hair colour and I swear it sucks totally. According to my stylist, the colour would slowly be developed after several washes and the crucial part is, he doesn't know how many, how long or whatsoever. RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Stab me! I'm so so so so soooooooooo disappointed cos I was sitting there with weird machines messing ard with my hair for more than an hour(or slightly lesser) then the outcome is super not desirable. Sigh, but i'm gonna keep convincing myself that the colour would get more obvious after a week or so cos the retarded JOJO TAN WEE TENG signed up a damn package with them for a total of 3 sessions. And paid. May god bless me.

New blog skin.

2009-07-10T15:21:00.005+08:00

Quick updates:

Gotten my new Nokia E71 phone with those uber coolshit keypad
New blogskin & yessa, VB lessons are of use now cos I edited 65-70% of the skin myself
'Blinged' up my digicam & i swear it looks like crap. Argh!
Six birthdays are coming up. And there goes my money...
Terrible grades
Storewide(or not) sales at DFS. Hola!
Totally have a thing for Megan Fox. HOT!

Oh yes, I seriously feel that the godly Chanel bag is so-not suitable for men. Especially young boys who are into street wear labels or rather, guys in general. I mean seriously, unless you're as hype as Bryanboy or style that is super close to his- boys, please do not even attempt to try carrying it. Else, you would look like my dearest Raphael(refer to pic). Ha-ha!

Window shopped two days back(after work) & i'm praying for them to extend the GSS till late August. Sigh, with all those birthdays coming up(in July), together with my random spendings are more than enough to 'force' my mom to cut away my credit card. Money, I want more money! More clothes, more shoes, more bags, pouches.......

R carrying mom's godly Chanel

More random pictures taken @vivocity. Fugly me.

I'll update more often!

2009-06-30T12:26:00.008+08:00

The birthday boy, me, ninja turtle & Hanie!

Yeap, Happy 20th birthday!

2009-06-29T09:16:00.003+08:00

Terrible, terrible, terrible. It's seriously damn irritating when you are sitting in between three extremely 'indian' indians and yes, when they start chatting, hoho, you would 'experience' some noice pollution.

School suck big time. Also, it's really hard to establish good bonds with the fellow classmates as well.

2009-06-28T14:10:00.008+08:00

Yesterday wasn't an awesome day but somehow, I enjoyed myself to the max. Cos I was with you..

Anyway, attended Serena's birthday party on friday so yeap, Happy 18th once again sweetheart.

Iloveyou..

[:

2009-06-19T15:14:00.004+08:00

); Sad sad sad. Unfortunately, the super chic Burberry has gone outta stock last week & I sprained my ankle yesterday. Sigh..

Anyway, I bloody hell overslept today and missed my most hated module, again. I swear I didnt expect myself to fall for my super tempting bed's trap this morning. (Ps: IM SO SORRY KINO!)

I'll be heading down to Chijmes later on in the evening with Raphael & fam and I seriously cannot wait. Tell me, who can resists the temptation of FOOOOOOOOD!?!?!! Ah well, im just hoping it would turn out to be an awesomeeeeee night.

Lily set off for Genting yesterday morning and it is the perfect time to sneak to her room in search for some 'treasure'. Hola! I have successfully 'dugged out' her collection of bags(even those FOC environmental bags! HAHA) and MY bags! Okay, she thinks that I just CANNOT take care of those designers bags so she kept it all for me in those lame dustbags. But anyway, that is not the main point. I have found her godly CHANEL! Omfg. When I first saw that, I thought it was just another weird black/gold coloured sling cos I was too bloody young to appreciate it. Gosh. Perhaps I could carry that out secretly and put it back to its orignal position when she's back? Argh! So tempted!

Oh yes, FYI, Lily is my mom.

2009-06-10T17:06:00.004+08:00

I want that brown Burberry bag. I want that brown Burberry bag. I want that brown Burberry bag. I want that brown Burberry bag..

Or the Agnes b one? Or should I wait til my birthday and ask my mom from it? Sigh.. Never thought i'd ever fall in love with those boringggggggg Burberry(monogram) bags again, must be the chic yet simple designs of the damn Blue label. Tsk.

2009-06-06T01:52:00.004+08:00

"you are not my cup of tea."

Oh yes.. That doesnt sound pleasant to anyone's ears at all. So now, what happens when someone says that to you? Are you going to turn a blind eye to it and continue being oblivious to this cold hard fact? Or are you just gonna give that person a big tight slap and walk off?

Is Love really blind? Even if you truly love someone, do you seriously not see any faults in him/her? Yes, Love is definitely partially blind for me. Im not extremely selfless to the extent that i'll be able to withstand any sort of crap/imperfections of that person. However, im 101 percent definite that for sure, it is highly possible that I can turn a blind eye(once again) to the special someone's, hmm, weaknesses if thats the right term.

Just something random- Eight(or nine) hours later, i'll reluctantly climb outta my loveable bed and head to the bathroom to wash up then rush to the sickening work place. Dont get me wrong, I dont loathe working THIS much but the thought of waking up due to the alarm just suck big time. Well, together with the who-knows-what-might-happen-tomorrow feeling(in regards to work) is so strong that its causing me some problems. Im not sure what, but psychological ones i think. Im guessing its due to the incident that happened last week, or to be precise, a mistake that I made which had successfully caused some 'side effects' on me. Youknow, you are too afraid to make another mistake cos you just CANNOT predict what your impartial retail manager is thinking and before you knew it, here comes a warning letter. Yeah, its putting me in a mood to malinger but argh(!), I decided to just jolly well face it instead.

Ah well, I feel myself growing up and getting more matured in dealing with things, kay, maybe not every single thing though. At least ive learnt(ed) to manage my stress PRETTY well and attempting to start acting like a 'real' adult. And please ah, its not that late afterall kayyyyyyyyyyy.

Dear god, may the fairy godmother appears in my dream tonight and turn me into a good tempered and sweet young lady. Shit, my stomach is growling again. Zzz..

2009-06-04T16:39:00.002+08:00

Sadsad life.
Before school closes, ive been yearning to laze around at home for the whole damn day and do nothing at all. However, when school closes, like now, staying at home for more than 12 hours a day is like boring me to death. Yes, i overslept and didnt manage to join ks and gang for the singing session this morning, and now, im rotting at home.

Im starting to miss Chantelle a lot. Totally miss those days when we used to bitch bout the girl next unit, gossip, share secrets, hug and cry together, grow fat together, compare boobs size together, throw PJ together and always each other's back-up mates.. I miss her. And I miss everything that happened two years back..

Argh crap. Perhaps I can try going shopping with my mom later, the ultimate shoppaholic.

2009-06-02T18:44:00.004+08:00

傻傻的。

最近通宵看了两三部连续剧，其中有一部是无线强档剧巾帼枭雄。据我所知，如今大红大
紫的《巾帼》原本是仓底货，差点没有机会播出，没想到从开播后就逐渐走红，收官战收
视更是达到最高43点。家庭争斗以及人性的善恶，都一一在这部戏里呈现出来，我也完完
全全地被感动了。两大主角把这两个人物演活了, 非常生动，实在太好看了！

另一部是韩版流星花园，也是一部扣人心弦的偶像剧。卡斯阵容还算挺强大的。。再加上
我也好久没有抱着枕头痛哭了。像似童话般的爱情故事大概只能够发生在戏里头，而现实
生活中的我们也无法像男女主角那么的敢爱敢恨。但在我内心深处也一直盼望拥有一个肯
为我牺牲，疼我，爱我，保护我，呵护我及包容我的完美情人。可我左盼右盼。。。。。。

哎，感情是种微妙的东西，同时也令人难以捉摸。当你偶然发现对方在性格上和自己有着
巨大落差时，或无法有的那包容心，你是否咬紧牙根继续的把这段感情维持下去？等待奇
迹的出现？还是为对方而改进？我妈说凡事都不能强逼或勉强，如果以认定对方和自己是
命定的的恋人，就该好好反省自己的行为，为对方付出。

真是好矛盾。。早已得知问题的根源及解决方法但还是选择坐以待毙，眼巴巴看着自己再
次重复那些过错。我真不知道自己在干嘛。。不晓得在犹豫什么，担忧着什么。偏偏明知
故犯。。又责备自己。天啊！教教我该怎么做吧！我快要抓狂了！

说些别的吧。这两周的假期让我等的颈都快长了！但他一旦来临之后，一些意想不到的事
又发生了。真懊恼。。

如有空的话，请约我出来噢！

2009-05-31T23:47:00.003+08:00

Demanding
Tyrant
Selfish
Hot temper
Insensitive
Less meticulous
Hurtful
Broke
Obese
Unhealthy

I'm so damn screwed.

2009-04-27T01:11:00.006+08:00

Awesommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ I'm starting to dread school again, albeit its a four-day week but still.. Sigh. As of now, i can strongly feel the massive gap between year1 and 2. Yes yes yes, like DUH?! right, i mean its obvious but the difference is so huge that i find it extremely hard to adjust to it. Especially when we have our Professional Profiling(a compulsory report for year2 students) to complete in this academic year and CE points(for those who dont know, im not gonna explain cos its tooooo long winded) to accumulate. Next, i realised that my to-do-list is getting longer each week, the ridiculously high standard/requirements for all the year2 modules, together with the amount of stress im facing or going to face is frightening. I know that i have to get through this stage and i will definitely get through it. And seriously, when can Mass Comm. be less difficult. ):

Anyway, head for Bukit Timah nature reserve on Saturday with baby. Well, it feels pretty good to go hiking once in awhile, however, i could sense that my babylove is keen to make it a weekly thing(yes, it was extremely tiring i swear). Whatever it is, i'll still love it(kinda look forward to next trip) as long as im hanging out with the love of my life. Hehe.

Went to Kate Spade(KS is the sex i tell you) at Takashimaya just now(sunday), yes, with my dearest bf again. Spotted a couple of cutesy things which i totally adore and finally, he gotten me a Red long patent, with light brown interior wallet. Rahhhhhhh! As usual, i was yet again, sooooooooo damn indecisive and stood there for 20 minutes(approx.) just to think of which to get. -.- And baby, thanks for saving up the 400 bucks for my wallet. I really really really love it, not just becos KS is like the dopest brand in town, but its something from you. YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

Alright, i've gotta go and plan for baby's birthday(present), reflect and force myself to strive for the best. Zzz.

More pictures are @ my p&k. Check it out if you even know the existance of the blog.

2009-04-11T02:42:00.002+08:00

Working sucks and i cant believe myself telling my manager that im able to commit 3times/week when school reopens. Life...... is truly unpredictable.

2009-04-09T14:09:00.005+08:00

Oh yes, had an awesome dayout with bebe again ytd. (: Well, i suppose y'all can guess where based on the picture above, and then, we head on to PlazaSing.&TheCathay to do some random shopping. Very very nice day.

This is just some random drawing while we were sitting by the 'smoking area' outside PS. HAHAHA! How cute are the colours, right? Totally adore crayons.

This is it! Pictures are with bebe so yeap. More updates coming up & im off to work now. Zzz.

PS: Sorry lao yang for the last min changes. ):

2009-04-04T00:32:00.003+08:00

Hohoho! Gotten my pink running shoes with bffp just now! Hm, or should i say just a normal casual shoes meant for walking. Whatever it is, i simply cannot resist the cute colours that adidas comes up with for the 'sports' shoes. Loveit.

Oh, made a trip to Ikea with momma in the evening and gotten myself a new orange weighing machine so i can monitor my weight. Yessa, im on my way to becoming a toner, slimmer and prettier JOJO!!!!!!!!! I hope. -.-

Im still considering whether to turn up for yang's chalet or not. ): Especially when im gonne be going on a short trip to KL nextnext week(& i am still thinking if i should go cos ive got limited time. -.-). Cant stand myself sometimes.. WHY AM I SO INDECISIVE.

Bebelove is still enjoying himself with his friends and i seriously cannot wait to see him on Sat(or most likely Sun)! And yes, the next thing thats coming up is bebe's 19th bd. Sigh, albeit i adore the process of getting the present, wrapping it, choosing it and things like that, but i've ran outta ideas this time round! We usually give each other presents every now and then and there isnt anything which bebe reallyreally needs or lacks of. Zzzz.. Moreover he managed to get himself hell lotta stuff during his trip. Grrrrrrrr.

2009-04-02T23:28:00.005+08:00

BORING DAY AT WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sigh, its just another day today. Zzz. Oh, i wanna grab hold of a pair of this Converse(Japan) baby! Retailing at $119.90. Should i get it? Should i not? Should i get i? Should i not? Shou....... Anyway, im praying very hard that they still have my size in the super cute pink colour one. Hiak hiak.

They are so cute, aren't they? :D

I miss my bebelove.

2009-04-02T00:27:00.004+08:00

So so in love with ButchWalker's songs. Yes, please check him out. Anyway, bebe has gone on trip and im left here alone in Singapore. )))))))): Sigh..

Have been so busy with work that i totally neglected a lot things around me, that i promised myself to do it back then when school closes. Now that school's gonna reopen, i'll seriously have to do something to perhaps, lead a much more fruitful life. Now the question is:
1. Continue my dance lessons.
2. Take up Yoga.
3. Run/workout regularly.
4. Go hiking on a weekly basis
5. Do nothing and continue being a fatass cos' i know baby will love me anyway. ^^
6. Learn a new instrument.
7. Back to my vocal class again.
8. Learn a new language.

Well, the list goes on and on but whether or not all those stuff can fit in my schedule is a huge problem. I definitely do not want to see myself retaining and having difficulties coping/juggling those those things. Thankgoodness, i'll only be having lessons for 4 days/week, which is considered the most awesome thing that can happen to us, Republican. You'd be shock to know how long is our school hours in year1, well, same for the rest. Terrible.

Oh, Gran Torino is another movie worth watching. Funny, touching and simple. Seriously, simplicity's the best sometimes. Just a simple story itself tells a lot. Check it out. (:

Boring post but please bear with me for now, cos i seriously feel damn Zzzz cos bebelove is not around me. ):

Was blog-hopping for the past 2 hours.. People like Huishan, cls, aimee, cherhwa, yh and all.. Hmm, idk. Memories started popping up and for that instance, i cant wait for the chalet.

I miss RAPHAEL KANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-03-27T02:24:00.006+08:00

SO MUCH TO DO, SO LITTLE $$$. (do you say few or little money? argh, whatever.)

Oh yes.. Just came from Cineleisure cos i went to catch this uber cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee movie- Confessions of a Shopaholic. I swear Rebecca Bloomwood(by Isla Fisher) is so darn adorable that you'll definitely wanna make friends with her so you can be updated of the biggest sale in town or those great fashion tips(& she loves pink as much as i do!). For those of you who have not seen it, please consider spending the seven bucks(or 7.50? or 9?!) to make yourself feel wayyyyyyyy better, especially the girls. WHY? Okie dokes, cos you'd just feel that you have every reason to go SHOPPING and this girl, Ms Bloomwood is just worse than any one of us when it comes to spending $$$. If you get i mean..

Next up, I WANNA GET ALLLLLLLLLLLLL THE CLOTHES IN VIVI MAG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! However, i just HAVE TO shed off the excess fats in my body, like seriously. I know.. i know....... I've saying this ever since the day i learnt how to apply mascara(thats my first 'makeup'). But i definitely trust myself, or rather BEBElove that he will constantly remind me about this, bout that and yeap, he's the greatest. :DDDDDDD

Anyway, i'll be damndamndamndamndamndamn, okay, really bored next week(Bebelove, you know why). ): So girls, if you need a companion, please ask me out. Pleassssssssssssssseeeeeeeee.

Lotsa love,
Jojo.

2009-03-24T00:35:00.004+08:00

MALL COP; Paul Blart

Movie plot: Paul Blart (Kevin James) is a single, suburban dad trying to make ends meet as a security officer at a New Jersey mall. It's a job he takes very seriously, though no one else does. When Santa's helpers at the mall stages a coup, shutting down the mall and taking in hostages (Paul's daughter and sweetheart amongst them), Jersey's most formidable mall cop will have to become a real cop to save the day.

Anyway, if you are up for a good laugh, without any form of coarse language, swearing, black comedy, sexsex&SEX, discriminations, gay jokes, racism......... (Alright, catch the drift, huh?), you might want to consider this cute film staring Kevin James, the bubbly cop wannabe. :D Loveit. & my BEBELOVE of course.

Oh, my class for the coming sem is out. COOOOOLIOOOOOSSSSSSSSS!~ There's people like lala, Martin, Ayman, Natalie and all. God bless, pleaseeeeeeeeeeee. For a better class, better people, and please please please, great faciliators.

Day 3 - Cross Cultural Communication (M204) @ E25M-B
Day 4 - Effective Presentation Skills (M203) @ E25M-B
Day 1 - Media Writing (M202) @ E25M-B
Day 2 - Communication Theories (M201) @ E25M-B

Mass communications, here i come! (-.-)

Outing with bebe tmr. ((: Yay.

2009-03-23T04:20:00.005+08:00

Yeap, trying to show-off my (for what i feel)cute phone. Ok, whatever. & @#!&@&*#@)&*&^#&^&^@^#^^@%#%%, my damn vaio seems like its gonna die anytime soon(screen was flashing and blinking away, if you get whatimean). Argh, is the one-year warrantee still on?

These days, 4 a.m(or 5) is when I’d like to be getting my SLEEP on, but some nights I don’t get what I want, and I lay awake in bed, fretting about what am i gonna wear tomorrow(i know this sucks), things with my R, that timberland shoes(or boots?) & whatsoever. Imagine this: After a long day, you are physically tired BUT, still mentally wound up and yeap, you have to get your arse outta t bed at 10 a.m. Goodness.. when can my insomnia go away?! Help!

-.-

2009-03-21T03:38:00.001+08:00

What do you do when you feel fat, unattractive & your confident level drops to almost half?!?

You buy new running shoes and tell yourself to run 2 clique everyday to burn the calories!
How funny.

Im in an extremely crappy mood right now and gonna pray for some miracle to happen. Zzz.. If only my dearest boyf suddenly came to realise _____ & gave me a surprise. (FAT HOPE!)

Anyway,
ive been missing some old friends THIS much and i swear, ive not seen those nice people for more than 3 months. Sigh, but thank goodness there's still their personal blogs so i can update myself with whats going on and stuff like that. :D

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2009-03-21T02:22:00.005+08:00

Extremely upset.
Its always like this.. always. It has happened to many fucking times and you can never get it. Why? Why do you not understand me at all? Why do you not understand this thing about me at all? I hate this. Totally abhor this feeling. The feeling of unimportance, hurt and once again, disappointment. Now what? You are going overseas with your friends and what? Not asking me along? Not even bother to explain to me? Not even having the intention to wanting to spend time with me all day long. No. Nothing. You are so insensitive. And at the same time, sentitive towards me and expect me to be sensitive towards your feelings. How unfair. How saddening. How cruel. I do understand. Understand that its a gathering, or a so called one with you and your friends, but fuck, it sucks so much to know you can live the country without me. Fucking hell without me. Family asking me for overseas trip, i bloody hell rejected cos i cant bear to leave you alone here. I didnt even want to tell you. Why? Just becos i dont wanna hear things like 'its okay, just go with them.' or blah blah. Its not a matter of whether you are fine with it or not, its i cant bear to leave you here alone. Fuck. You can even live without me. Without seeing me for more than 3days. I cannot believe this. Cannot believe this at all. Not even bother to explain to me how much you want me along but you just cannot. Worst still, you never thought of it even. When we first talked about it, you didnt even thought of asking me along but just went on and on and yes, you even said you would miss me there. I should not harbor any hopes that you'd eventually want me along.

Tomorrow's our off day. We planned about tmr. We have already planned where to go and what to do, all well planned. I dont get it. I seriously dont. I admit im sucha fucker to test you all the time. When you told me you were meeting your friends at 10 to do your passport, i could feel my blood starts to boil. On one hand, i wanna play cool and hope you could go at ease(not to be affected by me cos i plan to keep this disappointed feelings to myself), on the other hand, i couldnt stand it. Like totally. I mean fuck, you really BLOODY HELL TELL ME ALRIGHT, ITS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I LAST HUNG OUT WITH THE BOYS after i said you could just hangout with them. Okay, it may seems quite tragic that i have to use reverse psychology to gain attention and importance. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK! I cried out almost immediately. Hello? its so easy to test whether you need space or not. Whether you need time away from me. And you just refuse to tell me the truth. We have not seen each other for 3 days and your rare offday, you agreed to my stupid suggestion by just meeting your friends? I mean seriously, it happ so much times and you should know my style by now. We have things all planned out for tmr and yes, i requested off in order to hangout with. Now you bloody hell are so insentive to this issue and what? I'll be staying at home all day tmr. THE WHOLE DAY! I hate this. You know i have no close friends to hangout with during offdays. You know you only have 2 offdays per week. You know i took off to be with you. You know it all. But you decided to go on with it and thought i'd be happy if you listen to me and hangout with your friends. Oh good god.. Im really disappointed. Totally. And you know i hate last min changes.

Recently, you are getting more and more like me. I really hate this seriously. Hate it to the max. I genuinely feel that we are drifting apart. And now, i really hate to face the fact that our love isnt that strong anymore. You no longer have confessions to me.. you no longer send me cute messages.. you no longer miss me THAT much and of course, your love for me has became stagnant. STAGNANT. All becos of the problems.. My sucky behavior and all. Well, for this part, you are not to blame. Its me. Its me who caused all these things to change. I have changed. And so are you. There are so many changes about yourself which you dont realise it at all. Not a single bit. You thought you are doing well.. Juggling well.. Handling yourself well but you are definitely not. All you can think of is why am i like this? Why am like that? I mean baby, some of my change of attitude is becos of you. YOU. I dont wish to tell you cos im afraid you might feel bad. Upset or watsoever. I dont feel important. Or not that anymore. Im certain that im not sensitive. Anyway, i sense that we are going no where.. Constant guess of what each other is thinking at all. Keeping things to ourselves. Things just cannot work this way. I dont know when i'll finally initiate a breakup.. and i dont want to and hope that the day will not come.

You need space. And i neglected that. I thought your world can just be completed with only me. But apparently you cant. Guys need space. You need space. And sadly, i have over depended on you and trying to make you my 'WORLD'. I have been rejected new friends coming by cos i dont wish to let anyone enter my life except you now. Im so afraid that i might get too close with guy friends and make you unhappy so i refuse to even know more people. How foolish am i? Im changing my biggest strait for you.. and i keep complaining about it. You tell me. Do i need to interact more with others? When i asked you this during our 3rd month, you said no. We can just have each other. Is the situation changing right now? Am i thinking too much? Am i oversensitive? Or even, am i confused.

Why cant you read me like a book, know me inside out and dote/coax me like how much you used to. Yes, you are busy with work but this has got nothing to do with business? Does it? I really dont know. You thought im confused.. You said i am. But i feel its more of insecurity. Im not sure of thats the right word but anyway, i ought to learn how to give you more space. In order to keep you, i have to force myself to. And now, the lesson learnt is never adapt a certain style right from the beginning and when your partner tried to adapt into yours, you realise that you are becoming more like your partner. Or perhaps, its just plainly, your heart isnt with me 101% already. Or you might be too drained, even much more than me that you thought i just wouldnt understand how you even feel at all. Idk. I SERIOUSLY WANT TO KNOW HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT THINGS.. EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Idk why im crying all the way while typing this post. I want you to be the one for me. I hope im the one for you too. But... Idk.. I still want to believe so.

Every single night when i get home, i'll hit myself in the face of why cant i just control my temper. Why cant i control my feelings a bit more. Why.. Why am i like this. I feel myself getting uglier each day.. its becos i've lost my usual self confidence. My passion for fashion and the sweetness of Jojo. Im gonna give myself one last chance, just one last chance to make things work out and regain everything, of what i used to be. Cos im afraid that one day you might realise the old jojo you fell crazily for has long gone.. You still love me, but for the fact im your girlfriend. You are obliged to. You are used to. Or the feelings that have been accumulated for 7 months that you are just SO USED TO.

I guess only myself can really understand this whole chunk of 'true'/genuine feelings of mine. Please bear with me cos they are all coming straight form my heart, without much thinking so it may be very disorganised and consist of alot of 'jojo's language'.

No matter what. It crystal clear that iloveyou. And that imissyou more everytime the clock hand ticks once.(does it make sense?). And that i secretly pray in my heart that we can go back to the first few month when we first started out. Those days which i felt so loved, so appreciated... & that i was so sweet, understanding and all. I wanna go back to those days.. I seriously want to..

After so long..

2009-03-04T02:24:00.004+08:00

Working, dating. Working, dating. Working, and more dating. Oh yes, they are what i've been busy with all these while. I should say im pretty much contented with ma life now- awesome family, great partner and well, not good at all but a stable part-time job.

Met Ryan a few days back at Dusty and good god, he's still lookin' good(as in, not haggard or anything along that line) & as 'radiant' as before. Then he suddenly popped me this question, 'Jojo! Why do you come back?!' Sigh. I dont fathom why either.. But the most obvious reason would be laziness. Yes, im sooooooooo not enthusiastic about job hunting so i thought going back to the environment that im most familiar with sounds awesome. Oh, save me the hassle of flipping through the papers, calling up for interviews, going for interviews and even, wait for the their damn calls. Now here comes the price to pay for being lazy and just to name some new added 'things' or 'requirements'.

1. No chairs allowed for Dusty. Well, thankfully Herioc Rendezvous(sister brand) still has it. Think about it, standing for 9 whole hours(same place) seems all right but hey, its really a chore.

2. Due to poor sales, we have to buck up and push sales. Good god, nobody even bother to walk in, how to? Lelong?

3. Again, due to poor sales, the working hours for part-timers have to be cut down. Meaning, all part-timers will be committing less hours per week, which equivalent to lesser pay and more time to rot at home.

Whatever it is, since i've already stepped into the 'hole', might as well face it. Oh yes, the picture below is the SubcrewXDusty mesh cap which costs 150bucks according to Alloy(Im not sure if it worth THAT much but well, i have to admit alloy lies a lot).

Things are good with my babylove, except for some minor disagreements and old problems that require more time to resolve. However, i feel that its time for a heart-to-heart talk again, which i think is extremely vital to keep a relationship going and to look into certain unsolvable problems.

My new fav song, Empty by Clickfive.

2009-02-06T14:39:00.003+08:00

I tried to lie to myself that im dont feel empty at all. But apparently, i am.
I cant even stop procrastinating for even one second complain like nobody's business.
Well, no one can ever understand how lousy im feeling right now.

Helpless. Sadness. Lifeless.
The three big words that decribe me right now. At this point of time.
Im going back to work, in hope that i can kill some time & keep myself so busy that i wont have ample time to think of redundant stuff.
Sometimes, i just feel that im trying too hard. Trying too hard on everything.
& I dont fathom why either.
Take nature by its course, is that the only way out?

Sore, super sore eyes.
Burning.
I need some guidance.. and perhaps, hope.

I ought to adjust my mentality, do i?
Where is my self -confidence?
Where is my optimism?
&, just where is the crappy me?
Idk.

All the best, Jojo.
Reformation starts today.

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2009-01-01T02:04:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year people! Alright, this will be my first post in the year 2009. (:

As a matter of fact, i don't quite fancy those countdown concerts, or even places with loads of noise. It's like hey, it's only the New Year, just like any other day, right? Yes, i told my momma this when she asked why am i staying indoors on such so called 'highly celebrated' occasion since i have always loved to be around loads of people, screams and lots of laughter. I don't know either.. I know it may sound pretty odd. I just loathe it when people go 'hey Jojo! Not going for the countdown later?!'.. It makes me sound very pathetic when i say a No. Sigh.. mixed feelings. As i aged, i gradually start to appreciate the beauty of serenity&tranquility. Is it that i no longer need the so called sense of security which, i can only get when i'm with my yet again, so called 'party-goers' and 'goodpals'? Or is it that i yearn to go into a brand new year with selective people? Perhaps deep down in my heart, i value such celebrative occasions quite a bit that i always thought its just another day for get-togethers and have fun? I don't fathom why either.

Recently, i grabbed hold of this album which cous sent from Taiwan- 梁文音。Yes, she's gonna be the next ah-mei and i can seriously hear her singing with her soul, and heart. This in turn makes me think of countless things that happened in the past, 2008(nostalgic aye, haha). Come to think of it, i realised that i've always loved going into a brand new year. To say the truth, i complain a lot so i'll constantly tell myself, 'hey, things are gonna get better next year man'. However, it's quite saddening that sometimes, i can't help but sitting by and watch history repeating itself and not doing anything despite the fact that the outcome is obviously gonna be a negative one.

Spent my New Year countdown at a temple just now. Heck, i cannot believe it myself either. What was i doing there man?! Chanting? Cast away all evil spirits and badluck? Rahh. Idk.

I've been pretty inactive all these while(im talking bout this blog) cos i do have another blog which is a shared one and i do blog more over there. See, im just plain lazy.. So lazy to the extent that i somehow have a feeling that this will eventually lead me to failure. -.- Holidays is coming soon and i seriously need to be busy. Jojo needs something to keep herself occupied! Ever since i quit my singing course or took myself out from the contract, inactive in Youth Volunteer and dancing. I've not only out on much weight but i somehow lost the ability to communicate with people. Yes, striking a casual conversation is still as easy but something is just missing.. Im trying very very hard to 'look' for the 'old JOJO' but it seems that it's far gone. Vanished forever.

Don't get it wrong. I don't find my life miserable at all, but still i won't deny the fact that i always have the thought of starting my life all over. However, i've learnt t move on and constantly remind myself that the world will not stop spinning becos' of me. Right now, if i cannot even live up to this lil commitments and continue ranting bout how much this and that is unfair and blablablah, i'm bound to lose. I don't wanna be the spoilt lil girl, who complains and complains like nobody's business. I ought to grow up, to be a young adult who's willingly to take up responsibilties. I'm not gonna admit defeat as easily as in the past 18 years of life i've been going through. I need to go outta my comfort zone and still, be a happy girl. A happy Jojo. But well, whether or not this can be out into actions will be another story.. Wish me luck.

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2008-11-02T16:23:00.002+08:00

Cavewoman.

We shall see.

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2008-10-26T19:31:00.001+08:00

Going Genting tmr & will be back on the 29th! Don't miss me people! :D

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2008-10-24T11:06:00.002+08:00

Loathe it. Super.

Feel so much like a pampered kid who throws her tantrums easily.

Show me some light. Anybody?

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2008-10-23T14:56:00.002+08:00

Just one more day of torture and its the holiday! I seriously can't wait, or rather, i need to take a break. Whatever i'm facing right now is pretty suffocating for me.

Sometimes i'll just wonder why i'm fretting over things which are really unnecessary. How?

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2008-10-17T15:03:00.001+08:00

What a huge disappointment.

oh, im extremely sick now- with a bad sore throat and a voice which you can barely recognise as JOJO's.

& yes, ask me out people cos i'm super free nowadays.

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2008-10-13T14:10:00.003+08:00

I'm just screwed. Super screwed to the max. Is there something wrong with me or just that the whole world is going against me?

The three major issues.

Issue one- I can't seem to blend. Yes, there are always loads of fun and laughter but for i don't know wat reason, it's causing me to skip school a lot cos i seriously loathe the environment. Ganesh kp saying how much he thinks the people in the class rock, but detest the class as a whole. Same sentiments.

Sometimes i just don't quite fathom why i dread school so much. Yes, long school hours is one but also, the mentality that no matter wat, i'm still gonna further my studies overseas and i guess that explains my lackadaisical attitude towards learning over here. Sigh, when can i get rid of this rubbish mentality and start to focus..? Tomorrow? Next week? Next year? Well, only god knows. Bless me.

Issue two- financial crisis. LOL. Yes, i swear this is the first time in my whole entire life that i'm having financial problem. Mom's cutting down my allowance(cos she thinks i'm spending too much on tak-perlu stuff) and my credit card doesn't seem to help a lot, in terms of monthly expenditure. IT'S JUST BLOODY HELL NOT ENOUGH I TELL YOU. Goddamnit, plus some old debts which i owed. Sigh.. THANK YOU PARENTS FOR THE IDEA OF 'LET JOJO LEARN TO BE MORE RESPONSIBLE AND INDEPENDENT, SHE NEEDS TO GROW UP'. Oh yes, did i mention that i actually stop working? There goes my money.

Issue three- With him. I shan't elaborate much on this cos i'm confident that we'll be able to salvage the situation soon. Real soon. Or rather, HOPEFULLY.

Perhaps i should really look on the bright side of life. I can't believe i'm actually feeling this way when i used to be sucha chirpy fat bitch. Heck, someone please save me from all these bullshit.. Allah, Guan yin, Jesus, Mary or whoever.

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2008-10-09T12:33:00.001+08:00

I need good luck. All sorts please.

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2008-09-24T08:49:00.002+08:00

The road ahead of me is murky. Honestly speaking, i feel so aimless right now, so pathetic, so... well, weary. -.-

I so wanna put a halt to everything and hopefully, the world can stop spinning for me.

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2008-09-13T16:27:00.003+08:00

Updates Okay, it simply means updates in English Language.

1. My running nose is pretty stubborn this time round. -.- It refuses to go away!
2. I'm stucked at Central Herioc for two damn days. Yes, the weekends. Extremely WTH.
3. My cell is down and my F480 has yet to arrive. Wat's worse? I've lost all my contacts so please, text me with your name and trust me, its gonna save me a lot of trouble.
4. Got teamed up with Rudie the cock rider, Nesh aka Barrack Obama, Ah song and Ashilah ytd. I swear it was the best grouping ever. For me. Had loads of fun though. ;DDDD
5. Lady luck doesn't seem to shine on me lately. Sigh.. Good luck please!
6. I 've been stuffing too much junkf into my mouth so yeah, its time to shed off those extra fats in my body. I know i've been saying this for umpteen times.
7. I wanna go kbox.
8. The fire alarm just rang.
9. I just finished eating my Mee Hoon Kuey.
10. Where's the feather duster?

Okay, ciao.

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2008-09-08T12:31:00.002+08:00

百感交集。。自己也不晓得是什么缘故，就总是东想西想的。唉。。

近来经常迟睡早起，所以免疫系统极度降到最低。。果然不出我所料，我真的生病了。）：Ｂｕｔ！同学还算挺ｓｗｅｅｔ的，尽管我一再的推辞，他们还是替我买了Ｐａｎａｄｏｌ。虽然ｉ＇ｍ　ａｌｌｅｒｇｉｃ　ｔｏ　ｉｔ，　ｗｅｌｌ，　ｉｔｓ　ｔｈｅ　ｔｈｏｕｇｈｔ　ｔｈａｔ　ｃｏｕｎｔｓ．　Ｆｏｒ　ｓｕｒｅ．　（：

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2008-09-03T23:05:00.004+08:00

V HAHAHAHA.

Oh, i've been feeling extremely lethargic these few days and very simply- lack of beauty sleep and aches are back. Goddamnit.

Well, new class is pretty much fine but oddly enough, i'm still dreading school as usual. Anyhow, i swear i'm gonna fail terribly if i were to skip any of the modules and remain lackadaisical in class. Yes, not kidding.

z - yeah, no smoking.

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2008-09-01T23:11:00.002+08:00

MILLION THANKS TO MY DEAREST PALS FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES, PRRSENTS, SURPRISE PARTIES AND WELL, CAKES. LOVE YOU ALL.

Erm, i'll blog again tmr. -.-

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2008-08-19T15:28:00.004+08:00

OTags.

to sweetcrazedkid: :P I MISS YOU MAN! Hahaha!
to naonao: Good god, majority are super uncivilised but well, most of them are pretty 好客. You know wat? This guy from Yunnan, Dali just gave me this deco chain which i was told is a token of love(订情之物). LOL! So cute right! Oh, toilets without doors, cool aye?
to raph: no prob! :D Wish Justin Happy Birthday on my behalf. Oh, 25th right? or is it 26th? PLEASE SLEEP EARLIER CAN! OH WELLS, as if you'll listen to me. -.-
to bks: LOLOLOLOLOLOL! for sure! Anyway, their sweets really taste awful. -.- No worries, we still have our world class Changi Airport that sells great stuff. & i miss you guys too!
to LiyaBeliya: BELIYA!!!!!!!!! Now you are really damndamndamn far away from me! ):

I'm so not used to using Macbook and suay enough, the hotel only has Apple products. Wat's worse? I even have to DL Msn Messenger myself, AWESOME. Oh yes, will arrive(SGP) at roughly 5pm on thurs. Hmm, i miss our Merlion too.

One word to summarized all- Broke. Oh, i totally love the hotels over here and yes, to all my dearest classmates: Im at WenChao's hometown! Great place i can say. (:

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2008-08-17T20:42:00.002+08:00

China trip- Yunnan(7days) & BJ(a day)
1. Am still in China, dali and yes, there's internet connection in the hotel. Awesome.
2. I've gained 3 pounds, or even more. Eat, sleep, shop, sight seeing, crap. Wat do you think? Sounds quite relaxing aye. :D
3. My lips are erm, swollen. Okay not really that but just too dry due to the cold weather(idk why either) and they look godamn red and a lil pout. -.-
4. Just when i thought the fellow travellers are gonna be relatively, well, matured & BORING. Hmmm, good thing i've this schoolmate who came with her uber cool fam and the rest are really nice. Hehe.
5. Bought a Nike High Cut for $180. Quite ex for a Made In Cheena one aye? OH WELLS~
6. Folks, i seriously dont know wat to get for you guys cos all the stuff are surprisingly ex and yes, the places i went & going to are macham villages or the more countryside ones. SORRY! How bout stuff from airport? Grr.
7. I MISS POT.

Alrighty, if you guys really miss me THAT much, i'll be gg online again on tues night. Ciao! Spa time! (:

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2008-08-13T22:13:00.005+08:00

Quick updates

1. Missed today's class BBQ cos im bloody hell sick. -.- (just how much i anticipate it ever since that day Kathi planned, suay.)
2. Missed out that outing with Flint & Chantelle/Jen/Kiat Ho (im reallyreally sorry darlings!)
3. Miss W47K, to the max.
4. Nose's 'running' like dont-know-what now, feverish too. Sigh.
5. Saw Qishan at Taka just now. (:
6. Feellikeabitch feellikeabitch feelllikeabitch x 100000000000000000000000000000000. Thank god i'll be gg outta town for eight damn days.
7. M1 Huawei Vodafone modem sucks to the max can. Guess wat? It costs a few grands if you wanna use it overseas. Awesome, and that means im not gonna bring my lappy along. I'll miss you, Vaio!
8. J LIM NO LONGER GIVES A DAMN TO JOJO. ): ): ): ): SADDED!
9. Grands will be coming back with us after the China trip. Aweeesomeeeeeeee. I seriously have no idea why they adore SGP, esp HollandV that much. Yes, they'll be staying with us, AGAIN for heaven's sake.
10. I'm planning for a Japan trip next holiday/Malaysia trip in late august. Anybody keen?
11. Oh, im flying off to Cheeeeena tmr. Wanna send me off? Terminal 2. HAHA!

Please god. Tell me i've guessed wrongly.

2008-08-07T15:09:00.003+08:00

Jojo, Nicholas Carl Arlando, ewan the giant & KATHI aka the kitty.
JUST SEE HOW BORED I AM IN CLASS. -.-

Oh, the guy in RED(refer to above) says he's unattached and well, any girls who're interested please go to http://profiles.friendster.com/68453889 for more info. AH, he's got GREATTTTTTTTTT ABS. CHECK HIM OUT!

ALSO, Mr Nicholas Carl Arlando is looking for his lifetime partner and well, he's very into Muay thai and biking. So yeah, http://profiles.friendster.com/19074800, thats his page. Did i mention that he's got uber cool heritage and blue eyes.

When i was about to leave the class, Mr Kathi insisted that i should leave his friendster link here- http://profiles.friendster.com/3983480. Fine, check this HOTTIE out with his newly braided hair. Cheers!

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2008-08-06T09:19:00.008+08:00

Yesterday.

Mr Raphael Kang Y

hehe :DDDD

Once again, we cam-whored in the restroom after class. Y'all know, GIRLS~

Today.

Kino, Jojo & Naomi. Much love. (:

The blue girls!

-I totally enjoyed their company. Very simply. (:

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2008-08-05T09:56:00.004+08:00

Awesome. My cellph is getting from bad to worse- i can't even text people but only, reply to messages. In other words, i can't create message unless im replying to someone else's text. Okay fine, i make it sound even more complex but well, im working on it. Cheers.

I'm soooo not look forward to my china trip, which is uber strange cos i love travelling as much as i adore the colour, Pink. Anyhow, hopefully i can getta know some Chinese Nationals who can offer me million bucks to work for them. Hmmm, lets say some cool advertising companies or perhaps, Vogue(China) editor's assistant, albeit i very much prefer Taiwan's version. Yes, thats how much i dread everything over here, take for instance, SCHOOL & lotsa unexpected stuff. RAHHHH! Okay, i wanted to be a tigeress when i was like, 4. -.-

天啊！那个诱惑实在太大了。FINE 他应该回来了cos 我无意中偷看了他的 EMAIL！果然不出我所料，他最终选择了放弃，选择了无动于衷。。算了，我也只能自叹倒霉！始终无法抵抗我流年不利的事实。

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他曾向我说过- 他只叫我一人‘亲爱的’，说来还真奇怪。。我其实还挺习惯了他那风雨不改，每日都回传来的简讯。但很遗憾的，我在等的，在向往的并非是与他的约会或简讯，而是另有其人。有时候反而会憎恨自己为何选择为他趟开胸膛，而又对他忽冷忽热。ANYWAY，相信以我的性格，要打动我其实还挺轻而易举的。。或者应该说我很轻易地喜欢上一个人。SIGH，但愿时间能将我把这个从未开始过得恋情。我一定办得到。

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很快的，毛毛，韵玲还有姑妈她们即将伴随奶奶一同到澳洲游玩。妈妈正在考虑是否应该让我去。。不管了。。总而言之，毛毛又要说我‘WHY！就不能用繁体字吗？’拜托，我之所以会BLOG in 中文也是为了你们好不好! 毕竟人家是在新加坡长大的嘛。真是懊恼！HMPHF！

2008-08-04T10:00:00.007+08:00

Was at FEPdusty yesterday and exschoolmates gave me a pleassaaaaaaaaaaaaaant surprise. Yeah, Dery sayang dropped by as well! Anyway, guess she must be on the plane by now. Missing her like mad!

Dery was telling me how ex it is to watch movie in the states. Heck, thats like 8USD! Anyhow, they're nice enough to have some student price and things like that. -.- AND the funny part is, everyone was staring at us for dont-know-what reason. Oh wells, i guess Dery's american accent is just too erm, facinating for them. HAHA. Overall, had tonnes of fun, esp with KAMAL the 'Jonas Brother'. Or should i say mini afro?

it sucks when you like someone but you cant do anything bout it. sigh.

DERY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HP waist bag for sale: $280 negotiable. Buzz me if you're interested. Thank you!

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2008-08-03T01:46:00.006+08:00

Pictures say it all. Y

Random pose. :D

Daryl ChiaWenWei. HAHA>

Him again. :DDDD (idk why my eyes look so damn small. He's too 'striking' i guess)

Nathira! & heck, my legs look so unsightly. Well, all thanks to my uber short teeshirt dress. FINEEEEEE.

The sweetest thing alive. Last friday was his him & his girl's second year anniversary. Did i tell you he made all these straw hearts himself and she's his first love. Tsk, I LOVE YOU can! HAHA!(okay, i know you're the loyal-est guy on earth -.-)

Hehe, JEN!!!!! THAT smile of mine, omg.

Liya liya berliya. (i miss you! you're like soooo far away from me. Hmmm, say 200cm away? Oh wells, the insiders' joke)

The girls.

BFF! Right serena?! (:

bad hair day.

Hmm, some random poses again.

The wonderful memories. The wonderful pals. & The wonderful times we spent together. Please don't forget the crappiest Jojo Francesca Tan Wee Teng.

Jojo's diary.

It's already 3.47am and what im bloody hell doing? FINE, im pretty much troubled by some tak-berlu/tak-bulu(alrighty, it basically means unnecessary) stuff which just cant get outta my damn head. Sigh, guys are really unfathomable most of the time. Awesome, i even missed out the fun at Taman Jurong with the girls just now. Serve me right for working on weekends. -.-

Mom's supposed to j off to somewhere else but well, she went for this NATAS fair @ the expo yesterday and changed her decision. Fine, i'm not gonna give a damn cos she's bringing me along to China on the 14th(8days if im not wrong). Great, that's like two weeks later and SORRY JEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We'll have to postpone or 'prepone' our shopping trip and yes, fix a new date asap aye? Sigh, mom's forever like this. She's that kind who can fly off tomorrow and leave a note saying 'honey, i'll call back as many times as possible if M1 ever charge me FOC for my roaming bills'. Yeah, that's her. (scroll down for her pic, LOL!)

就在当下，你的样子彻底地霸占我那已满到不能再满的脑袋。。对，的确是那种无可自拔的感觉。唉唉唉！陈玮婷，还是算了吧，就当这一切都是错觉，都是虚拟的。。明早一觉醒来或许能够忘掉这个打从一开始就不该有的感觉。但愿他能够解决目前的问题，搞不好老早已搞好了。。祝福他们。

早睡早起身体好！

Erm, the bikes. -.-

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2008-07-29T20:47:00.009+08:00

Whattttttttt aaaaaaaaaa dayyyyyyyyyyy! Fine, this is super irritating and yes, we had a mini class debate just now. Like again. Well, thank god JOJO managed to control herself, you know, from getting too 'enthusiastic' and avoided using tooooooooooo much actions. Yeah, i talk with loads of actions.

Rushed down to Herioc Rendezvous, Suntec(it's been soooo long since i last worked there cos im usually at FEPdusty) straight after school with my blue shorts, Havaianas and of cos, my extremely shagged face. -.- Goodness, i swear i was sooooo worn-out that i had to literally drag my legs there- folks, eight hours of lesson and four hours of work(albeit all i had to do was stand, serve and crap with Jaslyn). Nuff' said, im sure you guys get the picture aye? & yes, pictures below! :D Ohohoh, did i mention we ARE NOT allowed to wear shorts and flops to work? Alrighty, now you know.

HERIOC RENDEZVOUS

3 TEMASEK BOULEVARD SUNTEC CITY MALL

#02-089 TEL: 62388167

& 6 EU TONG SEN STREET CENTRAL

#03-72 TEL: 62384788

Mannequin with my new scarf- Oh, i just named her Marilynahanesisca.

JOJO TAN- the sloppiest/most inappropriate outfit i've ever wore to work.

Herioc Rendezvous- Kids wear! The cutest hoodie aye!

Herioc New arrivals.

Herioc totes- Should i get this?

Herioc Backpack- OR should i get this instead?

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2008-07-27T16:51:00.003+08:00

I'm really sorry.

Happy birthday to all. Odd enough, there were quite a number of people celebrating their birthday yesterday. Like alrighty, five are considered a lot, aye?

For heaven's sake, i feel so guilty right now. I know there's nothing i can do to salvage the situation, perhaps yes, but things aren't gonna be the same anymore. The morning calls, the cakes, the texts, the constant appearances, pink candies, kitty snacks, the frequent moodswings & all the sweetest things- by right, i should've suspected it long ago(i've the tendency to go by left, how?). But heck, Jojo sucks at taking hints & everyone knows, including him*. I'm veryveryvery sorry. Please, BestFriendForever alright? I genuinely hope so.

Hmmm. I really have a thing for guys in berms and hoodie. Miss Chantelle Anthony Flint thinks im crazy cos she feels that Gucci boys are cuter. -.- Goodness, cant i love street/semi-casual boys more?!

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2008-07-25T23:00:00.009+08:00

who says we cant cam whore with moms? (:

MOM! call her auntie LILY.

Alloysious. :D

with the robber. HAHA.

Okay, i know i look the same in every pic. -.- Oh wells~

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2008-07-24T10:32:00.002+08:00

Quick updates.
1. Friday & Saturday: FEPdusty and Sunday: UNFORTUNATELY, Suntec herioc. ): (im already mentally prepared to stand for the whole entire day)
2. Had a mini class debate yesterday & i swear i seriously dont fancy it that much. Okay, i've always loved debates/debating but well, it sucks when the people you're handling with are those whom you adore. As in, i totally regretted raising my voice a lil at Tee Shirt. ): Hate that im always so affected by such minor things. Sigh, Emotional.
3. I'm sooooooooooo lazy nowadays. Yes, pics are coming up soon! (if my uber poor memory allows -.-).
4. I swear im gonna hold back my tears on the last day of the semester.

好奇怪。。总觉得跟他在一起有如他在我身边一样。自己也不晓得是什么缘故，或许他们在某些方面还挺相像的。。唉，可是他与他相比之下实在差太多了！他完完全全就是我的TYPE！So sweet, so cute。。就连穿着都是我喜欢的类型！天啊。。又有高度！FINE，最好还是不要胡思乱想了！HMPHF！

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2008-07-21T21:25:00.002+08:00

Virgo women.
She will be similar to Leo woman in appearance. A slim woman who walks with confident and proud. She has an egg shape facial structure, high and roundforehead. She likes to look straight as if she is searching. She is not a pretentious type and will always say what she thinks. You will see Virgo woman walks fast. She will try her best to be perfect, to look perfect and to feel perfect even though there is no such perfection(im pretty zapalang actually). She is very delicate of what and how she dress. She is bright and easily despair with obstacles. She likes smart guy(nonono! i find dumb boys rrrrreeeaaallllly cute :D) who will be compatible with her, so if you are a rich dumb guy, you can forget about her right now. She is not a very possessive or jealous person for she expect respect from her love one. She does not like a part time lover, or a temporary mate. If she finds her dream man, she will not go away. If she does not like you, she will always keep a certain distant. Act proper and appropriate is her discipline. She does not like and can not stand bad languages, cursing words or phrase. She likes a gentleman who open the doors for her(so true! such minor details do matter to me). She wants to feel protected and when a man taking care of her, she will feel like a complete woman. She memorizes everything about other people and about herself very well. She can really keep secret, you can trust heron this. She likes a refreshing and a mild scent. She is very delicate in maintaining her beauty, so you could see she is seriously picking soap which match and most suit her skin. Do not comments her on this very picky habits, it is her happiness in working full time as a self beautifier. She is not an innocent angle for sometimes she can be as tough as steel. Even she easily despair, she is not the type to cry over it. She is a shy type, so making speech in front of the room can make her nervous even she walks and talks confidently. She only search for true love, not just any love. Her love is an ideal one. She likes to think no one is neater and as effective as her, which can irritate you sometimes for there is no such thing. She likes sweet talk, but she can slip and say something unpredictable and unbearable to you too. When she stops getting mad, she will totally forget what she just said and be anangle again(this is especially true). If you have a date with her, you'd better be there on time. Flowers and sweet words can calm her down. If you want to say sorry , make it brief and straight forward. Do not drag your apologetic words into a long making it up events, it could lead you to another world war. She likes her man to dress nice and clean. She is good in details especially with money. Do not make she thinks that she is a clown or funny. In the beginning of knowing her, please try not to glance at other prettywoman so much. Early period of dating her, try not to hold her so much in public, it would not be a proper thing to do. She loves books, stage play and music and likes to criticize about them too. Criticism woman is her icon including big and small things in life starting from your hair, your dress, and the way you talk. If you are in love with her, be as almost perfect as your can.

Oh god. This is so accurate that i couldn't believe my eyes when i first saw it. Oh wells, except for those in red(totally untrue) & pink(not-so true). Yes, i know i sound like a kid. -.-

2008-07-17T01:26:00.005+08:00

1. Thanks Flint for the cakes. Omg, i was reallllllly shocked & of cos, touched. :D
2. Three more weeks to vacation! Like oh, finally.
3. My dieting plan doesn't seem to work. -.- Yes, according to my pals.
4. Singing session or Movie marathon. Anyone?
5. I've moved on. (:
6. Gotta work on Fri, Sat & Sun at FEPdusty. Siannnnnnnnnnn.
7. Attending vocal class + dance pract = DREADFUL -.- Guess im gonna stop for the time being.
8. Feel extremely restless lately. Well, prolly due to the lack of beauty sleep & school's just tooooo boring. Thank god i've great classmates who are pretty erm, entertaining.

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2008-07-15T12:53:00.005+08:00

IM NOT GONNA INCLUDE ACCJ'S PICTURE. GRR.

It's TUESSSSSSSSDAYYYYYYYY! Alrighty, just acting enthusiatic. -.-

这周末看了两部电影- HELLBOY 和 REDCLIFF。 HELLBOY 整体来说还挺不赖的，比起part one,武打动作是明显的增加了许多。再加上part two 有加入一些搞笑的成分在内，所以没有第一部来的沉闷。（：REDCLIFF, 也就是赤壁就没有我想象中的那么精彩绝伦，打斗场面也较少。唉，原本是想说跟ACCJ 一同去的，但果然不出我所料，ACCJ 又再度地令我彻底的失望。。 Oh wells，我最终还是玩得很开心, all thanks to J! :D

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2008-07-11T09:12:00.005+08:00

Nobody loves JOJO.

Im praying hard not to kana caught for my sloppy attire. -.-

The Rules*
1. No flip flops are allowed- i'll die without my Havaianas Slim.
2. No super short shorts & skirts are allowed. And damn, they're talking about knee-length okay.

These two rules are enough to let me die terribly. Oh wells.

I seriously feel extremely down now, plus my headache is back. Bring me good luck, tooth gem.

Fuck that bastard. Grow up, JOJO!

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2008-07-09T13:08:00.006+08:00

Jen & JOJO !
Team three! The best team man.
Surprisingly, I actually wore my Subcrew cap to school which i rarrrrreeeely wear. -.- & guess what, we had a fire drill, erm, practice? Oh wells, it was total crap and all we did is to walk all the way to the sports hall, took pictures with classmates and back again. -.- Yes, i was wearing my truckercap and my head was like steaming can. Super watthehell.

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2008-07-08T10:42:00.004+08:00

with liyana! (i know its super random)

Alright, am wearing my Leopard prints sleeveless hoodie with shorts, folks, TOPSHOP SHORTS. For heaven's sake, i look totally chapalang(or zhapalang) can!

Had a mini reunion with the old pals during the break. Sigh, albeit it was pretty much, erm, *, but somehow it feels good to with them. Ya know, people whom you feel really comfortable with and you don't to be say, pretentious? Or well, i dont know.

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2008-07-07T10:47:00.003+08:00

My weekend was pretty fine- worked at FEPDusty for both days. Extra yayness, especially when i went around taking pictures. (: I'll definitely miss that place for sure.

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2008-07-07T10:03:00.005+08:00

FEP Highest salon, Huimin.
FEP Highest salon, -.-
FEP Dusty, Reynold leong, colleague. HAHAHA.

Rey rotting at work. -.-

Mediacorp artiste, Qiyuwu. HOT!

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2008-07-07T10:03:00.001+08:00

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2008-07-03T15:27:00.003+08:00

For some reason, im feeling super hot all over- hot as in you know, not in anyway or anyhow gotta do with some sexual appeal or whatever. Oh well, im falling sick i guess. ): Alrighty, good thing presentation wasn't that bad, as in my team mates.

Awwwweeesomme man. He's going for a two weeks holiday real soon. And he actually told me bout it.
Awwwweeesomme two. He called me at 2am ytd and asked me for a favour, & this morning again. Nothing more??
Awwwweeesomme three. I miss him a lot. I seriously do.

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2008-07-02T11:24:00.002+08:00

Random pic of faci. Oh well~

School's as usual- boringgggggggggg. & seriously, im gonna die of lacking of sleep and that expains why im losing focus in class. ): Anyway, have to lead a more normal lifestyle and yeah- so much to do, so little time.

Yay, will most likely be working with Alloy this saturday. Muaha, it's at FEP Dusty somemore, extra yayness. Oh well, hopefully it's gonna be a good weekend and i swear im gonna transform myself into a better me. Yes, shedding off excess fats is my top priority nownownow, like seriously have to. Okay, i know i've been repeating this for again, umpteen times but still, trust me people. I wanna be gorgeous can! HAHAHA.

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2008-06-30T10:27:00.006+08:00

Everybody's saying how packed my schedule is- as in, schooling on weekdays & work on weekends. Okay, i seriously don't have the energy to meet people up after school every single day man, esp when i still have my additional classes outside. I'll definitely die of lacking of sleep/rest sooner or later. Anyhow, i'm still dying to meet new people so yeah, ask me out eh. LOL.

I've a strong feeling that manager's gonna put me at Herioc@Suntec next weekend which sucks completely. Heck, eighteen hours of continuous standing don't sound very nice right? In addition, Dusty@fareast is seriously not as boring(at least there's tons of cute guys). HAHAHA!

At work- herioc Rendezvous
Mannequin's big nipples. Oh, thats our new series tee.

Fucking GAY uncle.

Attempting to open my backdoor. -.- & ah sa on Herioc Rendezvous grand opening day.

candy wrapper without sweet. oh wells~

2008-06-29T01:13:00.001+08:00

Yawn* Am feeling super duper worn-out now cos' was busy doing stock-take at Dusty the whole entire night yesterday & the mahjong marathon. Oh wells, there goes my beauty sleep.

Vivian dropped by(Dusty) with her guy yesterday. Ohmyfuckinggod, i was pretty shocked and honestly, im super touched that she actually specially made the trip down with Xerxes. Well, we had a short chat and seriously, it was really heartwarming. Yeah, i couldn't stop smiling to myself after that. (:

Went straight to Ben's wake after knocking off from work. Albeit we were just acquaintances but really, i feel for his family and his loved ones. Anyhow, i'll remember him for as long as my memory allows and of cos, his most contagious laughter which i'm gonna miss most. Unfortunately, i had to give Serena's birthday party a miss cos its extremely inappropriate to rush over to someone's party after paying respect to someone else. Especially when i was busy playing mahjong with the relatives and yeah, was stucked there for the whole entire night- to liven up the place and accompany the rest. -.- (To Serena: Im veryvery sorry babe! ):)

I'm trying my very best not to think of patching up with fucker, or doing things which you'll most likely see on those ridiculously exaggerated romantic korean drama series(wow, thats long uh) but somehow, my mind just refuses to listen to my command. Although everyone has been saying how foolish and dumb i am, even he himself says that but heck, i always follow my heart & especially when***(the insiders will know). Anyhow, all is fair(equal) in love and war.

So someone please, save me by pulling me outta all these shit.

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2008-06-26T14:18:00.004+08:00

Fucker was featured on Lime magazine page 14(July Batman issue). He mentioned that last month and i thought he ws bullshitting. Oh well~ Editor must be blind.

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2008-06-24T10:00:00.017+08:00

POST IS RIGHT BELOW THE PICTURES.*

Dusty!

Ezanne & Fiona's backview; various artistes
Ezanne & me; Me & Tuna

Belinda & me; various artistes
BenYeo, BelindaLee, JadeSeah, JoannePeh, Randall Tan, JulianHee, AdamChen, ZhangYaoDong, QiYuWu.

Unfortunately, I only managed to take this amount of pictures cos' there were aaaaallllllllloooottttttt of customers that day. Well, now I know the Media people are rather 'uncle/auntie' & yes, almost all of them asked for further discount. -.- like 'eh, Media got more discount not huh? hahaha'. So lame. Oh, i totally adore Julian Hee & Randall Tan cos' they were super cute and hilarious. Did i mention Fiona Xie? Her hyper-ness is on par with the bubbliest person i even knew on earth. Alrighty, it's good to be hyper but definitely not overly-high. No doubt, she's really hot. :D

I'm so proud of myself today. Know why? Cos' im actually attending class now albeit its super dreadful as usual. -.- Probably heading for Beds to celebrate Serena's birthday this saturday. Oh well, kinda look forward to it too, as in, it's been dontknowhow long since I last sang(ya know in a pub).

2008-06-23T12:48:00.002+08:00

我们不再可以一起踩著浪花数著脚印我们过期的约定..

Seriously can't stand myself- well, for going for a couple of dates these few days. Don't fathom why either, prolly I juat wanna keep myself pre-occupied with loads of stuff to prevent my thoughts from running wild. Wild as in. erm, guess you know what I meant uh. Odd enough, his face will flash in my mind and in fact, it's almost like wherever, whenever. Undoubtedly, I still love him quite a lot.

Yesterday.
Head back to Dusty @ Fareast yesterday night, right after work cos' i left my Vaio and a Red star Balloon there. Now the thing is, I gave *(Dusty staff) a call after I knocked off(we knocked off at the same time) & asked him where he was. Well, that arse lied that he was already on the bus. Okay, he was obviously not telling the truth cos' it's impossible for him to close shop that quickly. It's uber disappointing okay! I mean hey, your female colleague left her stuff there and can't you just wait for her? anyway, our shop's shutter is fucking heavy(even a guy has difficulty opening it, not to mention a girl!)! And did i mention the part whereby i hand-delivered his psp to his place the day before, without even a 'thankyou' or sending me to his nearest bus stop. The time then was 11.30pm. Perhaps he doesn't want to see me or what, but still, it hurts a lot. Especially when.. oh well, i cried all the way home that day.

Last friday.
Dusty's fashion show was a great success. Somehow, I don't wish to elaborate much on it, plainly becos i seriously didn't enjoy myself at all that day and I was freaking worn-out. Pictures coming up soon anyway!

Today.
Gonna have a room-revamp very soon. Just for some reason, Idontknow why I feel so sick and tired of eveything in ma life, which is affecting people around me too. Mom could sense that I havent really been myself lately and offered this & that. Okay, it feels really heart warming but I hate it that everyone's making concessions for me. Like for instance, they tend to avoid issues like boyfriends and stuff which I think things are not supposed to be turned out that way. Anyhow, I should stop throwing tamtrums and look so childish. And cheap(I just dont know a better word for this).

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2008-06-20T09:28:00.006+08:00

Yay! Today's Dusty fashion show and I swear I'm gonna take some(or at least a lil pictures). Exccited x 10000000000000000! (:

Alrighty, Idontknow what's wrong with me, ya know, I've skipped school for dont-know-how many consecutive days already. Oh well, It's super dreadful and yes, boring stuff. Anyway, hung out with Chantelle at Starbucks@hollandv(sounds funny) yesterday cos' she 'sleptover' at ma place the previous night so yeah. Then we realised this, that is you won't getta see any chinese/malays/indians or rather, Singaporeans there early in the morning. Well, except for tha Barristas and myself, who were the only asians. And damn, Chant's a half german so I'm not sure if she's counted. HAHA. Ya know that kinda feeling, you will instantly feel like 'Hey, am i in Singapore?!' that sort of stuff. Anyhow, I love HollandV ta bits- 24 hours ColdStorage & Swensens, with uber cool people, bars and cosy cafes & restaurants. What else can I expect?

Nuff of that. Met up Elizabeth after Chant head home(Cos she needs to walk-her-dog -.-). As usual towning but this time round, we went to Beach Road, that place in which those army boys get their stuff like boots, tees and etc. Just when i thought it was an awesome dayout, i received a phone call which totally ruined my wonderful day. From my ex.

fucker: Hey, where are you?
Jojo: Bugis with Elizabeth. Wats up?
fucker: Can you like comeover to my workplace? My head's spinning like mad. Like just accompany me or something?
Jojo: You 'siao' ah.
fucker: Seriously. Just come over alright?
Jojo: okay. I'll see how it goes.

Okay, guess the insiders will get the picture. Naively, I head back town with Eliz cos she wanted see some stuff from his shop. When we reached his shop, he was busy chatting with people from the other shops and laughing away, leaving his poor shop just like that. What ever it is, toured around his shop and Liza didnt get anything(Alright, his stuff are rather pricey). Alright, I'm gonna keep everything shorter. After Liza left, I went back there to see how he felt and i ended chatting with the people next door while that fucker, hung out with this colleague who happened to drop by. And then i realised, that colleague is the one he wanna pursues. fuck. They were really close and totally ignored my presence. When i walked into his shop, he told me his manager's coming down now. Obviously, hinting for me to leave immediately. While that colleague? She was sitting outside his shop, reading newspaper. WTFingH is this?! I was super hurt and felt like a fool. Why the hell must he deliberately(i assume) showed me his wallpaper(which is still that cake which i baked for him dujring his birthday)? Why the hell must he act as nothing has happened and teased me as usual? Guess I really guessed too much into it and underestimate him- the skill of toying with people.

Anyway, I've learnt a bigbig lesson.

Dusty Grand Opening party Zocard. (:

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2008-06-18T10:23:00.003+08:00

feel super lethargic these feel days. idontknow, prolly due to some unnessary stress im facing nowadays. ):

cant believe ive spent my two weeks' allowance outta impulse yesterday. heck, thats like 350 bucks in total and i swear Mom's gonna cut it down. bless me.

received a shocking news from Alfred two days ago. yeah, unfortunately, almost all shops have to be closed for the day cos' two of the fulltimers have quit like super last minute. okay, i totally emphathise their situation, you know, all the stress theyre undergoing(manager has pretty high expectations) but well, who's gonna pity our manager uh? anyway, not gonna comment much cos' ive yet to find out the truth.

fucking abhor my life now. yes, im like bloody hell doing the same old routine every single day. goddamn. i cant imagine *he has made sucha big impact in ma life and im still super used to his presence. like 'oh, im gonna look for baby' and spending time with him at work and head home together. aww fuck it. he's busy dating and im here bloody hell griefing and talking bout habit. alrighty, i cant move on just yet. totally helpless.

waterfall @taiwan, YeLiu- cant imagine I WAS THE ONE who took. damn, i feel so professional can. HAHA.

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2008-06-16T10:47:00.002+08:00

super look forward to Dusty's fashion show this coming friday! seeing Joanne Peh, Fiona Xie, Ben Yeo, Nat Ho etc in person sounds cool uh? but well, ive a hunch that im not gonna enjoy myself. the insiders will know.

totally hate myself for being sucha fool. why am i still freaking hell grief over my worst relationship ever when its already been a week since we've gone on our seperate ways. whereas the other party has already moved on the follwing day we broke up and is enjoying his life. wats worse? he already has a new target. is he a jerk or am i just super dumb to linger on? fuck.

nuff' said, ive been repeating this to myself and pals for umpteen times. MOVE ON, JOJO!

wats next? Naomi has been talking bout' having a goal in life. oddly, im so affected by it and it set me to start thinking. to really think wat i actually want in life and add on to my pathetically few(i just cant think of any bombastic word for 'few') accomplishments. well, perhaps i should resume back to dieting-plan*, singing class & continue my hiphop dance course. its all bout' looking good, feel good & yeah, be nice.

relink Reynold- this is to remind myself cos' im forever too lazy to do it like now.

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2008-06-11T11:44:00.004+08:00

okay, i spent my last two weeks doing crap. total crap.

broke up with him on two days ago(monday). and yes, i saw him going home with this typical-sgp-look girl on the very same day we gone on our seperate ways. well, i shant make my blog so freaking damn emo but sigh, i seriously cried like mad. even until now.

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2008-05-28T09:43:00.004+08:00

had a mini gathering on the 26th with ex-classmates. well, the whole atmosphere(is that the word) was uber warm and yes, i definitely miss those secondary school days.

hung out with baby for the entire day yesterday. sigh, how i wish he could spare more of his precious time with me but i doubt so. just plainly becos basketball's his life. -.-

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2008-05-21T15:37:00.004+08:00

fuck it. i totally screweddddddddd my presentation, i mean like, the worst time in my whole entire life. just imagine this, representing your group and present it alone. the worst thing is nobody's helping me and i wasnt the one who did the powerpoint slides(like totally dont understand whole entire things). goddamnit. can i just cry?

my (ex)boyfriend is driving me crazy- well, not in a good way though.

fine, just bad year for the horses. oh, or is it just me?

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2008-04-28T09:05:00.005+08:00

Sunday.
slacking at work yesterday. HAHA!
Far East Plaza, Dusty.

Shop's uber cutesy wallpapers!

Suntec City, Herioc Rendezvous

Friday.
dayout at jurongeast last friday! :P
with yanghan & naomi.

with yanghan, peishi & terrence.

with peishi & huishan.

with the clique & steph.

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2008-04-25T10:16:00.004+08:00

my sinus seems to be back again. dontknowwhy but i guess its probably due to those late-night-outs(is that how you say it? LOL).

missed the culture module again. oh god, i wanted to attend today's class, i seriously do. sigh, heaven knows i'll overslept today eh? shouldnt catch the Super Hero yesterday night. totally worn out.

having running nose, or rather, its been 'running' for three(or four?) consecutive days already. its like heck, i still have to drag myself to school later on cos today's Replug's briefing. PLEASEPLEASE DONT ASK ME TO SING. i mean like, how the hell am i going to sing in this state!? im having running nose man!

he's mad at dont-know-what again. guys are seriously unfathomable. well, at least for my guy.

found these uber interesting lockers xP

ps: im starting to love my classmates more & more each day. (:

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2008-04-24T14:52:00.003+08:00

1/2 of the class.

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2008-04-24T11:01:00.002+08:00

Updates.
1. Watched the Forbidden Kingdom yesterday and yes, it was freaking hillarious.
2. Well, im single now but somehow, not officially. anyway, im still 'open to all' huh! HAHA!
3. Ive missed three week of my singing class. bless me.

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2008-04-17T19:42:00.002+08:00

class was extremely lame cos' my facilitator was uber funny. yeah, he says things like, 'aiya, all these are crap lah' or 'what we'll be doing doing is really pointless' kinda stuff. how cool huh. anyway, i genuinely hope that lesson will be conducted like this for the whole semester, even the next. (x

saw quite a lot of familiar faces today and surprisingly, many couldnt regconise me. my goodness, i seriously hope i didnt become uglier/weirder/grosser. watever.

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2008-04-16T19:10:00.009+08:00

this is already the second week of school. yeah, a brand new learning environment & knowing new friends, adapting to each other and stuff. sigh..

there's this Interest Group thingy in our school, which is quite similar to that common name 'CCA' that we are all familiar with. yeah, was poundering on whether or not to join two IGs but ive already decided on one- Replug.

am going for their audition on.. urm, i dont know. next week perhaps? sigh, hopefully i'll be able to pass their audition if not first of all, super 'throw face' & secondly, im gonna be uber disappointed cos i seriously wanna join that IG. damn, singing is still my favourite hobby(other than shopping for sure). xP

hm, quite used to my school's PBL approach already. yeah, we'll have to do presentations every single day and solve a giving problem that is given, under tha module for instance, basic sciences or cultural. and hopefully sooner or later, we'll become eloquent speakers! HAHA.

have this new clique in school and surprisingly, none of them is from my class or my block(you know those whom you can crap with but not to becoming your 'gang' that kind). anyway, our school works in a way that each and every student studies the same thing in year 1 and then from year 2 onwards, then we start studying about our course. okay, i seriously cant wait for year 2 to come! yeah, i really love the fact that mass comm people are generally more chatty.(dont fathom why some say stucked up). watever it is, i seriously have to cope & adapt to new things and yup, wish me luck folks.

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2008-04-02T11:51:00.002+08:00

im really so sick & tired of all these shit i went thru for the past one week.

sigh.
i so look forward to another singing session.
anybody keen?

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2008-03-26T16:31:00.003+08:00

today's another boring day at work. butt i seriously have to thank god that i can actually connect to the internet @ Dusty. i dont know why, prolly cos its quite near to the Starbucks Cafe.

Reynold came over before going down to fareast Dusty. okay, he kinda brightened up my day cos i was doing practically nothing at work and i spent 3/4 of the time staring into blank. oh, he gets to see one of our company's old staff, Vanessa & her girlfriend too.

new season collection has arrived. sigh, the Herioc @ central outlet is seriously too tiny to squeeze everthing together! the old stocks have yet to be cleared and now, there's this new arrivals. alrighty, im off to do up the stock already. ciao!

(yay, guess im gonna be @ Suntec Herioc most of the time after ive converted to parttime)

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2008-03-24T18:11:00.002+08:00

sigh. sometimes, having too much suitors isnt as shiok as you think.

im actually working now & serious, suntec Herioc is too big for one person to tend, esp when tha lunchtime crowd is ridiculously large.

heard that school will officially starts on tha 7th. well, to say tha truth, i genuinely look forward to study in a brand new environment and know new people. yes, im in mass communications. (:

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2008-03-22T18:40:00.003+08:00

my singing class wasnt that terrible as i thought. okay, first of all, i missed two weeks' classes & i failed to hand up my assignment which is supposed to be completed three weeks ago. grr.

company had this fashion show @ Zouk and i actually missed it. butt well, at least i gotta see Twins(one of them) in person & yes, i did tha payment for her. oh, she uses a green Prada long wallet & yeah, she's my company's(Herioc Rendezvous) spokesperson.

ps: i cabbed & ran all the way from central to tha new suntec outlet ytd okay!

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2008-03-08T12:47:00.005+08:00

okay, one moment im hating you to guts & tha other moment, im missing you like hell.

life @ Central's getting more & more boring, or prolly cos im so sick & tired of tha same old thing which im doing and talking about almost everyday. mom thinks im outta my mind cos i actually request for tha extension of my fulltime period till the end of march. well, me myself dont fathom why either butt i do act rashly & super impulsive most of tha time. somehow, i feel tha need to get outta that place asap cos tha longer i stay on, its gonna be tougher for mi to leave that place(cant bear to you see..). be it justine, jiawen & everyone or anyone else.

Justine will only be back next friday & right now, im praying hard that tha fellow wont come back with another girl, or rather, girlfriend. okay, im quite into kovan/koven/wateva now. :D

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2008-02-26T11:10:00.004+08:00

okay, went to tha doctor's & tha dignosis: Gastroenteritis.

i almost died at work yesterday & serious, tha pain was really excruciating. anyway, Gastroenteritis is a catchall term for infection or irritation of the digestive tract, particularly the stomach and intestine. It is frequently referred to as the stomach or intestinal flu, although the influenza is not associated with this illness. Major symptoms include nausea & vomitting, diarrhea & adominal cramps. These symptoms are sometimes also accompanied by fever and overall weakness & these are wht i went through both yesterday & today! Well, Gastroenteritis typically lasts bout three days so yeah, im recuperating at home now(hiakhiakhiak, a very good excuse of skipping work). so yes, do take note if youve these symptoms & make sure you consult a doctor immediately. oh one more thing, thank god yuanling's girtlfriend(vivien) came over to have her uber-ex haircut @ Anthony yesterday & borrowed her jacket to mi, if not im gonna die-of cold at that stupid mall.

discussed with jeslyn(again) regarding my transferring of workplace & tha badbadbad news is ive to continue staying there till march 15/16th! my goodness, i seriously cant stand tha damn place, looking at tha same old people, same old stuff, rotting & doing practically nothing almost everyday. butt well, ive already resigned to fate & just bear for another three more weeks to transfer to fareast.

school's starting real soon & damn, im soooooooo look forward to start my schooling life & end my uber tiring working life. mass communications, here i come!

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2008-02-23T11:26:00.004+08:00

okay, good news is ive gotten back my phone. yay!

supposedly, my rec. artistes' class will commence on tha 22nd butt heck, its been temporary changed to next sat @ two. oh lord, hopefully my manager allows me to change my off day to sat instead of tha initial friday(keeping fingers crossed*). & now what, we've yet to be informed of when is tha second lesson. how sickening.

went to payalebar to discuss bout tha singing stuff with tha boys. well, everything wasnt that smooth & easy like we first thought butt still, we managed to come up with a couple of good ideas. okay, i always think that boarding tha train @ eleventhirty(payalebar station) will be extremely scary butt surprisingly, it was kinda crowded(okay, i may consider taking train instead of cab at that hour cos its muchmuch more cheaper can!). oh yes, saw one of tha liondance guys(with his pals) on tha train. my goodness, i couldnt even regconise him until one of his pals ramdomly said 'working @ The Central right?', which caught my attention(ps- tha lion dance troupe came over to our shops last week). alrighty, shant elab more(as usual) butt really, my memory is seriously terrible.

im not gonna give up & will continue looking for that Dusty outlet @ fareast. well, that'll be my new workplace(prolly early march) afterall!

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2008-02-16T09:46:00.004+08:00

time really flies so quickly & ive already worked for a month. really, it seems like yesterday. :D

my valentine's day didnt really suck big time. well once again, i celebrated with girlfriends(BFFs) for tha third year(it always happen that im single at tha beginning of tha year). okay, im not saying its a bad thing butt.... y'know wat i mean? its valentine's day afterall, VALENTINE.

watch tha lion dance closup for tha first time, in my whole entire life. yeah, i never liked tha loud audible noise they make(the drums & stuff). anyway, they came over to our shops & yeah, i totally freaked out(haha)! goodness, i opened tha shop @ 9.30 that day, with ten/twebty over guys standing just outside waiting for sam(my boss). alrighty, i shant elab more of wat happened next. anothor company's event thats coming is tha fashion show @ zouk. sigh, tha thought of it makes me super excited butt heck, model casting is almost like a disaster. well, models were asked to tryout out our clothes & catwalk on tha bridge outside our shop. now tha thing is, we, tha retail assistants have to clearup tha mess & although they come in diff time slots, still, there'll be a lot of work to be done after everything. imagine 10/20 over models squeezing inside tha small shop & getting change, choosing tha clothes, changing to our super troublesome highcut shoes & yes, their bags were already occupied 1/4 of tha whole entire shop. space constrain thats it.

went to eai chalet ytd night(after i knocked off!) & that was a total waste of time. albeit it was really fun to do some catching up with pals butt still, we waited all tha way till 11 for tha chief producer just to brief us on tha upcoming events that are coming up! oh well, there'll be live band performances this & next year & yeah, saw tha new keyboardist, drummer, saxa & etc(well, i must admit theyre uber cool & awesome musicians). anyway, there'll be a mass audition for tha taiwanese singing competion(星光大道) today @ plaza singapura & two/third of my singing pals, or rather eai peeps, will be joining. for me? well, im tha more realistic one(haha!). okay true enough, our vocals are fine(for many, indeed, theyve extremely powerful vocals)butt hey, competing with those taiwanese man, no way i can tahan tha pressurizing environment. extremely intimidating.

oh yessssssss! tha peeps with authority are all outta town! you know, its really a good time to slack when your manager, bosses all went travelling butt anyway, we've to figure out wat to do when smth happens. last butt not least, i'll be transferring to tha fareast outlet, dusty next month!!!!!!!!!! im really elated butt at tha same time, i cant bear to leave my current working place as well. i know its contradicting butt afterall, ive already worked in this mall for a month & by then one1/2 months. y'know, friendships are established & stuff like that, sigh, im just that emotional.

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2008-02-07T22:58:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year. alrighty, this year isnt that terrible as i kinda enjoyed myself with those other teens in my family. albeit its extremely pressurizing when someone(for instance, my aunt) asks bout wats going on in my life & studies. its not that my life sucks to that extent or i practically flunked everything in my Os butt tha thing is, my cousins are really accomplished. well, prolly becos i feel kinda inferior sometimes.

starting work on tha tenth(which is chu si or chu four)! sigh, everything clashes on that day as i still have to bai tai sui, pickup grands from tha airport & bai nian as well. okay, i heard tha horses' lucks are rather bad this year so yeah, to play safe, guess i better do smth now(im quite superstitious actually).

oh, saw josh & aloy today & all three of us wore red & black. was in my uber red red-dress+black belt & heel and tha boys were in their super red shirts & black jeans. my goodness, we're almost like three big walking angpows/siblings.

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2008-02-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

Wahhhhhhhhh! Horrible day! Sigh, i realise everyday's almost terrible after ive started my working life.

Okay, no doubt tha people at tha mall are super nice butt when it comes to cashiering & stock-checking, damn, i must admit im really not up to it. Been discussing with lotsa people & many think i should get outta that place asap & go back to Giordano(well, at least all ive to do is serving customers & simple replenishing of stocks, etc). Headache.

Oh yes, ive already promised myself to stay outta outram park station(excluding my working days) wheneva i can, esp aound 10-11pm. You can never imagine how much banglas there'll be at that hour & eeeeeeeekkkkkkkk, i seriously cant take them. Okay, its not that im being racist or smth butt heck, i presume nobody can ever tahan being surrounded by a bunch of blacky banglas all tha way till tha south-west line platform(or north-west/east-west/wateva line cos i dont rmb such things). Hm, it'd great if my future bf/gf owns a car/bike, or even a trishaw is perfectly fine for mi, rather than squeezing with those(you know), banglas.

It really sucks to see your crush being extremely moody for tha whole entire day & sigh, its even suckier to constantly guess what your crush's thinking & just cant fathom why he/she is behaving this & that way. Yes, im talking bout Justine(anyway, she's only into older girls, sad) & all that fellow did is just look down & trodoff without even saying a bye. & im just sooooo affected, serious. (wats worse, ive a lot of crushes okay)

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2008-02-01T22:23:00.000+08:00

I almost killed myself when i found out that my phone's spoilt. Alrighty, not really spoilt but just that tha battery's flat. & now, tha thing is i cant charge it! Oh lord, i actually survived on a phone-less day.

Aunt came over to HeriocRendezvous to join mi for dinner(her office is just nearby) butt heck, i was super full after eating tha dontknowwat fish from Chippy, tha british takeaways. Yeah, outta sudden, i realised it isnt that terrible to work to at tha uber quiet mall. Esp when there're lotsa awesome peeps around butt well, there're still a couple of f*ckup ones.

My mucles are aching like hell, or rather painful. Okay, tha pain is so excruciating that ive to kinda limp & wats worse, im gonna go shopping tmr. Mom says ive been lazying around for too long & after ive starting working, my legs wont be able to withstand such long hours of standing & walking. Butt hey, im sitting down most of tha time!

Been Kboxing quite frequently of late. Ive to admit its partly due to my upcoming Artistes' forgottenwat class & i really feel tha need to start practicing as tha class commences next month(iknow iknow, ive been saying this for N times).

CNY's coming & ive yet to get any NY clothes. Yeah, i just cant shop for clothes like this wait til tha day comes & then wear it. I mean, im those last-minute-shopping kinda peep & im constantly doing my shopping so y'all know, just dont see tha need. Okay, i'll probably get two sets of lingerie & pajamas, a new pair of heels & a dress. Thats it. (Im actually more interested in post NY sales, if tha brands ever have it).

Again, Justine bade mi goodbye & this time round, in an extremely 'high' way(waving her hand vigourously). Cuteeeeeee.

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2008-01-31T23:25:00.000+08:00

ohhhhhmmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyggggggggggooooooooooooooooddddddddd! juntine wave mi goodbye! y'all know, infatuation. oh yeah, juntine's tha one who works opposite(salon) & then i just realised tha salon is actually a so called renowned one. well, tha rate for a junior stylist is minimum 50bucks okay! oh, did i mention its only wash & cut?

one more uber shocking thing, joanne peh actually posted that pic which is taken from my shop! & she calls mi 'meimei'. visit www.joannepeh.com.

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2008-01-29T22:25:00.001+08:00

oh godddddddddddd! i actually saw joanne peh just now. nah, i should also say we chat, laughed, took pictures & she was hella nice. well, just now was her makeupfree day & damn, she looks almost tha same as wat you & i see on tv. prettaye.

she was so nice to tha extent that i almost thought i was chatting with a new friend butt an actress. okay, she isnt like those celebs who're extremely 'guan fang', like they'll always go 'oh yes yes' or just force a smile & zoom off. butt joanne? nah. we were chatting for roughly 10-15+ & she even asked mi bout my results & my job & stuff. yeah, she's just so real. oh, i was also asked to visit her blog- by her. (: (okey dokie, pictures are coming up soon)

wellwellwell, still have to work from eleven to seven tmr. yup, super drained. okay, im gonna resume back to my usual routine- checkin' out cuties, chatting on tha phone, reading novels(cos ive alrdy read almost every mags which are selling at tha newsstands), crapping with alfred @ dusty, laming with siew keng @ herioc & other staff from tha mall, serving costomers anddddddd sitting behind my counter & rot. people, feel free to visit me anytime & i'll be glad to chat with you & of cos, offer you a sweet as a reward.

just getta know this particular weirdo or rather, oxymoron. can you imagine this, he can actually blabber on & on regarding this certain issue. well, for two solid hours.